This will go ignored I’m sure but I’d like to talk a little about my project Das Weisses Kaninchen or The White Rabbit to refer to it by its English title. I’d like to elaborate a little more on the style of writing that is to come and my reasons for writing in this way, also the thoughts and feelings I have about the work.
First of all I suppose I am writing this as a companion to the work and an introduction rather than a discussion of the material. I am not intending to deconstruct the work as such. Also I am hoping that this may well be of interest to some that stumble across this, what should I call it? I have no idea so I’ll move on. I am hoping most of all some may find this useful when starting out on their own literary journeys. A lot of thought goes into my works and I like to think this is why I believe that I get the reasonable success rate of my works in my own personal opinion. I always know how I want something to be and why I want to be that way. I don’t simply write for writing’s sake. I do have the intention to make more of these notes/ companions as the work progresses. This work is very much experimentation and so I like to unload my thoughts on it. Well enough about that on with what I said I was going to do.

The Style
I wouldn’t say there was anything extra ordinary about the style in particular, it’s not very adventurous, nor is it different from any that have gone before. I do take pride in its slightly baffling order of events and I feel the two linear stories compliment one another quite well. On one side we have Conrad’s first person accounts of his thoughts and feelings about events. This internal monologue is presented in the journals that are found intermittently during or between parts of the story. These journals are not necessarily shown in a linear pattern unlike the plot that occurs from start to finish in a more or less straight fashion. I enjoy juxtaposing ideas like first person, third person and linear, anti-linear and that was something I am trying to achieve with this work. As it is yet to be finished it is hard to say if the end result will seem messy or not. Only time will tell.

Inspiration
I have ever since childhood been quite fascinated with the work of Lewis Carroll, it’s loaded with a lot of different meanings and quite often possibly written off as rubbish. I am drawn to the unusual and the fantastical and so his work is definitely that although I haven’t read it all. I would recommend it for sure. For this work in particular I would say Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland in its dreamlike and rather random world are inspirations as well as my own dreamlike wanderings. I am in particular fond of the character of the white rabbit, which is where I started out before I wrote the story. I am not meaning that I intend to copy the story of Alice in Wonderland but in fact talk about our escapes. The places that we might escape to when our worlds become too much. As in the book Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland she tumbles down the rabbit hole after chasing the white rabbit. He is the key to her escape, her New World. So in this I am exploring and asking, what is your white rabbit? What is that helps you to escape?
Those who know me know that I read a lot of fantasy adventure novels and I love it. I am also obsessed with the old, old eras, old objects everything. I love Knights, Princesses, castles and fairytales. All of these and more are my inspiration but I will explore the finer details at a later date as I publish more.

The Protagonist - Conrad
Any readers at this point will know very little about Conrad and the world in which his story is found and that is simply because of my own laziness when it comes to updates. He is a feisty and rather spoilt teenager but a strong character and for me that is a rare thing indeed. My main characters are often very flawed; not to say that Conrad is not flawed. They are normally weak and unsure of their direction; Conrad is quite the opposite. He knows what he wants and knows exactly how to get it. I wouldn’t say he is likeable but as a young man that doesn’t go pale at the sight of the challenges thrust upon him I would say that I admire him in many ways.
He is in his journals very sure of himself and with most of the people with whom he interacts he is calm and in control. Despite his strength he has a lost of insecurities that he stashes away, he tries not to let others around him know his true feelings. He depends a lot his brother and before that clung to his mother with a neediness. Although he finds it difficult to open up he chooses his moments carefully and normally lets his feelings out when he is alone. Of course there are times and characters that catch him unawares with their persistence. Hadrian is one example. With these characters Conrad chooses to keep them close in order to keep his own feelings secure, to defend himself. If someone knows the truth he keeps him or her nearby under his careful observation to be sure they tell others the truth about him. The truth that he is human after all.
When the story begins Conrad is seventeen years old and I have particular reasons for that. My ‘life’ began at seventeen. This was when I first started to become the person that I am, came to terms with my earlier life, I woke up from a dream or perhaps a nightmare you might say. I think before that, I went where I was told, hid and pretended to be something that I’m not. A certain person came into my life too and showed me that I had more than that to offer. I wouldn’t say that this work is Conrad’s coming of age but perhaps in some ways it could be seen like that. He is the main protagonist but it isn’t simply about Conrad alone. I will explore the other characters at a later date.

That’s all I will put into this companion for now, my notes as I progress on this experimental journey, perhaps I will see you there, perhaps not.